I’m obsessed with a lot of things but I think most are harmless. My obsessions make me smile. They make me laugh or make me feel more confident. I’ve been discovering lately the bliss finding your happy can create. It’s a simple concept but one that has eluded me for the most part until now. I used to feel like that was wrong or that I should wallow in what was wrong instead of the right. I’m not sure exactly what’s helped me turn the corner. Maybe realizing crap continues to happen regardless or maybe feeling like I’ve lost a lot and focusing on that doesn’t bring those things back. What I think the biggest epiphany was though is knowing I’m responsible for my happiness and finding it isn’t selfish, it’s my right. It’s funny the strange ideas you can pick up as you grow up. I thought making yourself happy was selfish and wrong. If you make yourself happy and hurt others, I suppose that can be wrong but you cannot continually forfeit your happy either. I feel guilty even typing those words. I worry that people reading this might roll their eyes and think I’m a narcissistic brat who cares about only about myself. I’m learning, albeit slowly, people will think what they want regardless so I’m following my happy the best I can. So I’m going to troll Pinterest for pictures of baby animals and quotes that inspire me. I am going to dress how I like in things that make me feel beautiful. I’m going to hangout with my friends and be me, not who I think people expect. I’m going to snuggle my dogs and kiss my cats. I might even accost strangers and talk in my special voice I use for adorable beagles (said strangers will obviously have beagles in tow. I won’t just accost random strangers for no reason). I will snort when I laugh and trip when I walk. I will be who I am and if you wonder where I’m at, just look around, I’ll be out chasing my happy. You should join me.
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April 26, 2015
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