I’m sorry I’m not perfect. I’m sorry I expect too much. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the person you thought I was. I’m not sorry I stopped trying. There has been a certain freedom in deciding to just be. No more rejection or begging or guilt. Where has this been my whole life? No one told me I had to be constantly dancing. It was a lesson I took out of examples or behaviors I watched growing up. No one said I must, I just thought I did. I just assumed to be accepted or loved I had to give and give and until I lost who I was altogether. I don’t see a time where I won’t worry but I am certain I don’t need to dance anymore. I’m certain I don’t need those who want me to in my life either. It makes me sad though. I’ve lost people I loved because of this. My heart hurts but I’ve realized no amount of dancing can change them so it’s time to let it go. Maybe in time, they will come back to me. Maybe missing me is what they need. I’m sorry I’m not perfect. I’m sorry I expect to much. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the person you thought I was. I’m not sorry I stopped trying but I am sorry I lost you.
I’m not an indecisive person. I like what I like typically and can sort thru things pretty quickly. I think I learned it from my Dad. He could walk a...
My hip won’t allow me to chase you and neither will my new attitude
April 26, 2015
Well, it’s all over now. I’ve completed five years of fundraising honoring my mom and all those who’ve been added since the beginning. My final triump...