Help needed

I have been having nightmares about losing people. I have begun to believe maybe it’s a me thing. Today during my run, I felt especially sad and lost. I’m tired of feeling like I’m almost good enough only to be reminded I’m not. In fact, I was starting to panic as the bitch in my head took hold today. I was so scared about what she had to say, I reached out to a few people just to keep me safe from myself. It helped but I’m struggling. So instead of a long drawn out blog where I try to use my struggles to teach a lesson, I’m going to shamelessly ask for love and support. I’ve got to dig deep and try again but for today, I’m not strong, I’m not driven and I’m not here to help others. Today, I need the help. Pray for me to gather my strength.

Much love,

Amanda